✧.*Bunni's journal✧.*

family beach trip.

letter to my freshman self.

Dear freshman self, When I first started high school it was supposed to be like the movies. I expected to have tons of friends and make amazing grades except I ended up looking down on myself and I didnt know how to connect with myclassmates. My biggest worries freshman year was am i gonna get a popular boyfriend, would i have someone to sit with at lunch, would i even make any friends, and would people spread rumors about me. I came to highschool with zero friends to start off but then I meant my bestfriend on the first day of school. What I miss most about freshman year is the classes I had with my best friend and the old friends I used to hang out with. My hardest moment in high school was my junior year. I felt so alone I cried every single day all year in every single class. I was failing school and I was back in a dark place. But I learned that my mental health is important and started learning how to take care of myself and handle/cope with my emotions. The biggest thing I learned is not everyone is against you and not everything is personal. Some habits and mindsets that wouldve made high school easier are organization, a better mindset and view of myself, studying and paying attention, learning how to focus. In freshman year I learned that not everyone is gonna like you which I already knew from middle school but I guess I relearned it. Because of this i learned to keep my feelings to myself and never put to much trust in someone cus theyll probably break it. Academically ive given up from time to time but learned that you have to keep trying and be consistent than you can get what you work for you just have to believe Some advice id give about stress and balancing responsibilities is always be aware of what your mind is telling you because your brain can be your worst enemy When it comes to making friends and fitting in you just have to remember that everyone is still learning and growing and dwelling on interactions and replaying the embarrising moments in your head makes you forget the exciting and fun things that happened Life was so much more fun when i was a freshmen because i didnt really have anything to worry about anything. To prepare for senior year my younger self should gain more self love, more confidence, a voice and a better organization system. I look forward to life after high school because I have plans and people around me that support me. I am so proud of myself for becoming the person I am and it is important that I remember I'm loved, I'm smart, and I have people who care about me. So even though high school wasnt like the movies, I am grateful for my experiences ive had and the lessons ive learned while being here but at the end of the day get me out of here.

today me and my boyfriend went on a date. it was very nice because i missed him since hes been sick. we got boba, i got sunrise tea with strawberry poppers and mango stars and my boyfriend got strawberry milk with strawberrys in it. we walked to the pizza place and got huge brooklynn style pizza and i ate all of it and it was so yummy my man got pinnapple pizzza and i got cheese. then we went and smoke a pre roll from the vape shop and talked, it was so much fun!

10 things ive been enjoying this summer.

#1 is refreshers, ive really been enjoying drinks like lemonade, the chick-fil-a passionfruit pineapple lemonade is probobly my favorite along with cherry limeaid and pink lemonade.#2 is cardigans, ive really been enjoying cardigans because its to hot out for a full jacket and i prefer keeping my arms covered. so a cardigan is perfect because its not to thick and it matches perfectly with most of my summer outfits.#3 is taking pictures of little moments that bring me happieness for example if i walked past a bush with flowers i really liked then i would take a picture, this helps me to remember how many things and moments happen throughout the day. that kind of brings us to #4, journaling because i love to use the pictures from my day in my journal,it helps me to visualize the memory i am writing or reading about.#5 being nicotine free, this summer i quit vaping and i have noticed a decrease in headachs and the time i would spend hitting a vape i am spending on othe things like hobbys.#6 sitting outside and enjoying the weather no matter if its rain or sunny, just admiring natures beauty and all that is around me.#7 sandals i have been loving sandals because its so easy to put them on and they match any summer outfit. #8 this summer ive really loved making cute outfits and trying new and diffrent styles. #9 ive been on my laptop this summer way more than ive been outside because it is so insanly hot. so yes ive been enjoying my laptop. #10 lofi music has been a big help for me this summer when it comes to focus.

today i planned on going to the fair with my boyfriend, riding rides, and watching fireworks . but the fair we picked was way too crowded like there was swarms of people coming in the entire time so we decided to leave and go to a smaller one but we couldnt find any parking spot there. i started to get upset and cry so we just found a sonic. i got a pretzel and motzerella sticks but when my food got to the table my stomach started to have the worst gas pains ever so we ended up leaving the sonic and going home and i ate my food on the way home and it made me happy and i got spend the night at my boyfriends house.

today is the first of the month and i want to make this a productive month. but today i went to my boyfriend’s house and it was so much fun. i really am in love with him — he makes me feel like the only girl that exists and that’s amazing. he makes me feel all sparkly inside. but since it's the first of the month i want to list some of the things i want to start doing.

• yoga (morning or night)
• lower my screentime
• journal every day or end of every week
• put more effort into hobbies

last night i had a sleepover at my boyfriend’s house. we got to cuddle because his grandpa was not home . it was so nice being able to fall asleep in his arms. we had a deep talk last night, he said "you don’t only have to write about me and you days in your notebook." and it made me happy because he cares about me and not just our relationship.

today i had to wake up early because i’m dog sitting, and for dinner i went to hardees and they gave me the spicy chicken nuggets and i had to go back because i hate spicy.